Friday, 9 April 2010

Tough days

It does seem that bad things all come together at the same time and at the moment our family seems to be in that position. I'm not sure it's the best thing for me to blog about so I may post this, think better of it and then edit or remove it but at the moment it's nice to sit here and type these feelings out of my system.
My brother in law started radiotherapy this week and whilst it is a bad thing that he has had the diagnosis that he needs to have it, I have to convince myself that it is a good thing too as it hopefully marks the start of his recovery. This treatment comes at a stressful time for my sister as her daughter is expecting her first baby mid May. This is my niece who lost a baby last year and who is prone to Strep infections so the moment she goes into labour, she needs to get straight to hospital to be put on an antibiotic drip. So again, a worrying time but hopefully marking the start of happy times.
Back on the home front, I have an angry son who has just found out that one of his 2nd year uni exams falls on the day his girlfriend of 2 years flies out to Africa for 9 weeks of voluntary work in a school, so he cannot go to the airport as planned to wave her off. I have a distraught tearful daughter possibly in the midst of breaking up with her boyfriend of 7 months, unsure what is the right thing to do and dreading making a wrong decision and regretting it. I have a husband whose job is unsettled, much changes afoot at work and a lot of uncertainty there. I am the kind of person who does try hard to see silver linings in grey clouds and normally I would say it is probably better for my son to say goodbye at home rather than in an airport, and that Mr Right is waiting round the corner for my daughter. Sometimes it is easier than others to put a positive spin on things, and today I am struggling.
Thanks for listening! I feel better for having put it all down in a post, but will quite possibly delete this at a later date!

8 comments:

humel said...

Well, before you delete it, can I please send you lots of *hugs* - I'm so sorry to hear you're having a tough time right now, and will be thinking of you xx

scrappyjacky said...

I'm sending you hugs before you delete as well,Debs. Sorry to hear of your tough time at the moment,but totally sympathise with your feelings as I too am sometimes having a hard time finding 'the silver lining' in my OH's illness.Am thinking of you.

Jane said...

Another hug before you delete!! Life is definitely a roller coaster isn't it?? xxx I saw a quote somewhere this morning that said something about how if we didn't have these trying days, we wouldn't be able to appreciate the good times!!! Keep that in mind!! xx

try to look on the bright side too - I can empathise with the job worries - my husband's job finishes on Tuesday - it will be lovely to have him home all of the time - I just wish it was for a better reason ;)

xx

Jane said...

(I meant that 'I' try to look on the bright side too - oops)

Deb said...

My goodness, girl, you certainly have your share of heavy burdens to bear right now. I'm glad you blogged about this, actually, because you really need some positive thoughts and energy sent your way. And you will receive it, no doubt! Keep your chin up, and do keep us posted on the outcomes. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers ~ and sending you long distance hugs! xo

Maria Ontiveros said...

That IS a lot on your plate. Feel free to use us as a sounding board - we want to be her for you. Sending you lots of hugs and will definitely keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.

jennifer said...

we're all here for you deb - sending you sympathetic and encouraging thoughts. It's tough and horrible but you'll get through to brighter days. x

Sian said...

Very sorry I am only reading this now..but I'm glad I found it so that I could wish you all the very best and tell you that I'm thinking about you right now x